Thursday, March 06, 2008

hey.

just got back not too long ago. had a nice brisk walk from far east to ps. went to daiso. finally found my sponge. hope i dont get the rude shock of finding it unsuitable for use when i open it. did quite abit of wrapping and letter writing last night. was quite satisfied with my design. heh. its gonna continue tonight i guess. despite the fact that my circumstances look grim.

u know. its funny how people view love. parents love their kids. but somehow the kids of my generation and those soon to come see our parents as anal, conservative, controlling, cant get off our backs, last to see with in town. then there are other stuff. love relationships, even loving ur fren enough to tell him, he or she needs to accept Jesus Christ into his or her life. loving someone enough to give them a frank opinion about their flaws. loving someone enough to stick by a person even when dealing with them feels like running through a live firing area during a live firing exercise. i find myself questioning, if no one truly appreciates love that isnt cheesy, that isnt romantic, that isnt hugs and kisses. then we are one heck of a demanding generation, or we simply dont know that love is. for me, love is what Corinthians says it to be. and even thou i know its not something i can fully live out, but i believe in this definition and my belief is what drives me to strive to achieve something as close to perfection as possible. wad is love? wad does it mean to u?

then another thought. u know sometimes, i wish i could be like Orsino or Othello or some silly literature character and yell sentences like, "The world is one great irony fulled with constant hypocrisy." makes u think twice about judging others, about disliking them for a certain character trait. makes u wanna examine yourself lest the same blemish can be found on urself. i wonder if anyone ever thinks about that. the beauty of literature is that it taught me how to appreciate thought and reflection. not to live life just purely for myself, not to live life not being able to embrace change, not live life not being to accept failure. thank God for the experiences i have been through. all my near misses, my rejections, my head on clashes and seemingly doomed relationships. they made me strong, more mature, made me the person i am today. if i never went through them, i might just be another empty shell of a person. we all enrol in the school of hard knocks from the day we are born. but what we take out of life, what we take out of this hands on providing curriculum, is truly up to us. what have you learned through life? how did it mould you and shape you to become the person you are today? have you ever thought about that?

heh. just some thoughts.

other news. results tmr. hope i can get into smu. i wont accept my worst case scenario until i m convinced that i cannot have my best. liverpool won 4-0 at anfield. another el nino hat trick. sweet stuff! free for lunch tmr. any takers?4 down, still 12 to go, but my heart hurts and my smile disappears thinking about that certain subject matter, can i still finish off those 12. at this point, 2 of them are signed and sealed but not yet delivered. is there a need to deliver those 2 and the rest. ns enlistment. 13 march. can hardly wait.

dinner time. gtg.

|cowpoo| 7:47 PM|

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